I have sat down to write this painful article so many times. Too many times.
Any excuse I can find to get out of it I have used.
Readers, we lost our Pumpkin quickly and out of the blue on July 9th.
It is just too hard to say goodbye.
I thought maybe I should write a helpful post such as “5 Ways To Mourn The Loss Of A Pet” or something that would help others. This will happen, in time. I am not ready yet.
Saying goodbye to a dear sweet friend, a furkid, it’s just too painful.
My pets play a major part on my blog.
I hope you understand my re-using of previous images.
I am not ready yet to scroll through all of the photos on my phone camera.
Photos I have snapped every day of her and all of my pets.
I felt I should let you all know she is no longer going to be featured in articles.
I can’t believe she is gone.
They are my furkids, my friends, my mascots, and so much more.
My pets are part of the family.
I had to cancel a doctor’s appointment the day after Pumpkin left us.
The reason I gave when they asked: “A family member just died”.
Pumpkin and all of my pets are family members.
My sweet cuddly girl passed away within five minutes of us noticing something was wrong.
There were no warning signs.
My husband and I had just sat down to eat dinner and she started to make strange noises.
She coughed a couple of times, her breathing became labored, and she was gone.
My husband only had time to get her from the cat tree she was laying on and put her on the floor.
We were both by her side when she passed.
It’s just a fact that no matter how well you take care of a pet, this can happen.
Vet visits, excellent pet food, grooming, and all the love in the world can not stop sudden death in pets.
Since we do not use harmful chemicals or leave toxic things around that can harm our pets I was bewildered.
I won’t even have flowers in my home that are poisonous to pets.
We have had pets who took time in their passing.
When we knew it was coming.
Times when we had to make tough decisions about prolonging their suffering trying to have treatments done.
Or just letting go, saying goodbye, and having the unimaginable done so they no longer would suffer.
No matter which way it goes, it is never easy, and you never have enough time for those goodbyes.
Of course, I spent a few days doing the self-blame, wondering what I did wrong.
Then we were told that some cats have heart problems that can not be detected with regular vet visits.
Putting a seemingly healthy cat through the process to detect such heart conditions would not be fair to the pet.
Even had we done that and found out she had a heart condition the treatment process would have been torture to her as well.
Getting that kind of treatment local to us is just not possible.
We did not get an autopsy.
Based upon how suddenly she passed, and the way she was acting the moments prior to her passing, our vet and we are fairly certain she had an undetected heart disease.
The most shocking part of all of this outside of her leaving us is that she was our youngest, most active, and playful cat.
We absolutely never saw this coming!
Love your pets.
They leave us too soon no matter how long of a life they have.
Please see Pumpkin’s Pet Profile in order to understand how absolutely special she was.
There is a hole in our home and our hearts.
I am in tears thinking about how we were deprived of a real goodbye.
Yet then I think of the times I had time for those goodbyes with other pets and how much torture that was as well.
Nub misses his girlfriend terribly.
You truly can see depression in the face of a cat.
We are comforting the other pets in our home, especially Nub. He is so sad.
I miss spooning with her every night.
She used to sit at the window beside my bed, enjoying the breeze on her little face.
She would go back and forth all night between the window and me until she fell asleep right next to me.
My husband misses her greeting him when he comes home from work.
We both miss her pawing at our faces for more attention.
So many little things, special things that are now gone.
So sorry, I can’t write about this anymore.
Thank you, readers, for the love and attention you have given our Pumpkin in the past.